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May 30 The last thing on your mindCan’t remember how long ago, I came across a song when I was doing something I can’t remember either. Listening to it for the first time had made me categorize it into a not-bad list. This did not happen too much in the past. It seems not arguable that it should a beautiful song with smooth and harmonic flow. Besides what traits it has to become a good melody, the name of song itself made me feel something different about this song. Just as it says, ' Sing , the last thing on your mind the last word on your breath i'll be the one to keep you i'll keep you at your best the last thing on your mind ... i'll be the one to keep you one disaster less ... ' Even I do not know what is the original purpose of this song, it might be too obvious for many people to think about anything else other than love feeling between two. Of course the same thought hit my mind right after I listened to its lyrics for a few second like what every other pop song talks about. However, I started to feel something somewhat different when the melody played once more and more by my ear. Yes, it is about love. To me, it sounds more than love between two persons. Lots of times love could extend to a broader sense. It made me think of our love towards our country, as a whole, the love towards hundreds of thousands of people who are suffering huge loss from natural disaster, the love towards billions of people who showed their support for victims etc. Sometimes it is just a mixed feeling, we care cause we love, we support cause we love, we feel sad cause we love and we feel excited also cause we love. This is all about us, even lots of us did not get affected. Several slides of moving moments happened during earthquake rescue back in China flashes through my mind. My heart is almost broken when I saw the picture of grieve scene of 130 million Chinese mourning for the loss from this disaster for three minutes across every corner of the world. It is more than what my heart can bear. It is too much for my spirit to spring back from. Words such as ' disaster' or 'tragedy' just are not enough to address the pain. Raw grief for those I do not know and never will. By witnessing friends and family around showed great and unlimited care and support to those people affected most by the earthquake, I deeply feel that, this time, every single of us, as a Chinese of black eyes and yellow skin, stands together shoulder by shoulder. Natural disaster is unstoppable which has been proved by many well known moments in human civilization history. Its devastating impact may drive people into desperation. But it did not quite happen this time even the severe magnitude of the earthquake is unprecedented. But it is the people, including PLA soldiers, all of people help rescue, showed that we can do something against every misfortune since we believe the same and care each other. If we agree with what Alexis Carrel said about hardship : 'Hard conditions of life are indispensable to bringing out the best in human personality.' Then we should realize we also gained something this time. That is the fact that 130 million Chinese get closer by going through all of this misfortune together, heart to heart. Let us remember this special moment and pray for future. We will be better, we will. I will be the one to keep you. I will be the one to keep you at your best. April 03 水一般的双鱼她,总是一个让人难以形容的人。 她,又是一个让人难以拒绝的人。 她,还是一个让人难以舍弃的人。
她就是这样一个特别的人,我和她之间,有着一个不那么特别的特别故事。
一段关于双鱼和天蝎的故事。
那年中秋月圆之夜,我遇见了她,远远的,她在人群的中央,炫目夺采,难以接近,但我最终还是向她的方向走了过去…也许,人生会有很多让人后悔的时刻,但我不希望这是其中一个。
那年圣诞夜,我独自走在南京熙熙攘攘的大街上,蓦然回首,仿佛看到她熟悉的背影,但短暂的欣喜被数秒钟后现实的感叹所替代,是啊,她怎么会在这里呢,仅是痴想而已。那时候,我和她的距离,也许并不比南京和纽约近多少。
当盛夏到来的时候,当我再次遇到她的时候,彼此的变化会让人觉得,在这个新的季节里好像一切与以前都不同了,但她还是那么美。当我认识到,我已经被她的美丽与聪慧折服的时候,一切都已经太晚了。已经不可自拔的,爱上了她。那是一种说不出口的爱,也正是这样,才刻骨铭心…..水一般的双鱼,沉缅中的梦幻。
不久后的深秋,当落叶慢慢随风飘下的时候,瑟瑟凉意的秋风仿佛带走了最后一丝曾经极度的狂热,随之留下的只是那阵阵的心痛。失去,永远是让人不愿面对的。拥有后,立刻失去,是让人最不愿意面对的。当我试图忘却伤痛的时候,她清秀的脸庞却出现在脑海中。为什么走进我生活的是她,为什么忘却却是如此的艰难,为什么杯中Whiskey的浓度这么低,为什么眼前的世界容易变得这么模糊….. 水一般的双鱼,永远让人难以琢磨。
在1/4人生的庆典上,最不该出现的人,出现了。一年中,我最应该觉得快乐的生日聚会上,她的意外出现,让我心中有一种说不出道不来的情愫。一段日子不见,她看上去成熟些,却仍旧带着那份清新脱俗。尽兴,宣泄,畅谈,都让这次生日成为我很长一段时间来最快乐的时刻。宴会中,心仿佛被一种无形的东西牵着。喝了很多,醉意在那个时候,在我与她之间,是最需要的。但,当回家酒醒之后,躺着,听着她送的CD, 心情再也忍不住。往日的片断,随着旋律的悠扬,在眼前流过,就像泪水在脸上划过。
时间的胶卷,飞快向前转动…..
又是一年盛夏,当我们再次相遇,时间换了,地点换了,身边的人也换了,心情也像夏日的清风那样让人惬意。她就像一朵经历雨后的花朵,带着储藏在心底的思念和爱恋,盛开在我面前,盛开着这个恋爱的季节。思恋她可人的模样,倾听她动人的声音,成了我繁忙工作之余的寄托。不可置疑,那段时间是快乐的,每周五下班前的感觉的是,迫不及待的。距离并没有拉远我和她,距离让彼此更有空间去认识对方,思念对方。思念,是一种考验,也是一种享受。Hey there Delilah…
寒冷的冬天,并没有让人觉得孤单,难得长时间的相聚,让距离更近了些。越是了解她,越是觉得她的与众不同之处,她的善良,她的随和,她的细心,她的通情达理,让我对她的看法又更进了一步。一年前的那份不舍,换到如今,更是一份珍惜与爱怜。她的要强,永远是一个值得欣赏的角度。偶尔触碰到她柔弱的一面的时候,心中有的只是自责。太多太多的时刻,感觉幸福像一种气味融化在空气中,握紧手掌的时候仿佛它就在手心。有时候,不知道是心在跳,还是心在融化。水一般的双鱼,浪漫中的温馨。
春暖花开,鸟语花香,她的身影终于出现在那熟悉的地方。记得在我人生最无助,低落的时刻,是她在那,一直在那,在我身边,无时无刻。她忙碌的背影,倾心的呵护,永远在那,深深刻在心底。温暖,但绝不只是体温的温暖。感激,但绝不只是言语的感激. 前言万语汇于心间, 记住,
当这一切的一切之后,我们还有一个约定,一个美好的约定,一个蒲公英的约定。
故事仍在继续,但愿可以像一部播不完的电影,一直进行下去。
永远的passion, 会让时间永恒。
January 22 JinGLe's 20不要被题目所误导,虽然是新年,不过我早已过了20,甚至也过了可以回忆20的年龄.不幸被点名,现以作答。望点名者满意。为积攒人品,这次就不点名了。 我的回答: 1. 你最难忘的一件事是什么? 答:回首人生,历数旧事,太多难忘,选出任何一件都会让其他失色,没办法,有些事情记性就是太好。 2. 你会选择爱你的人还是你爱的人? 答:两者兼具难道不是选择的前提么。现实的无奈只是借口,清醒的认识才是实质。 3. 最近最郁闷的事? 答:不得不接受实验中的头绪可以乱到和感情一样。 4. 你最希望从朋友(不包括爱人)那里得到的是什么? 答:理解,信任。 5. 你最想去哪个地方?为什么? 答:爱琴海中的一个小岛。在那仿佛可以找到与历史中,传说中的伟大爱情的切合点,时空交汇。 6. 你在2008年最大的心愿? 答:在PhD的生涯上迈出更大一步。 7. 推荐一家你认为好吃又实惠的美食店。 答:长沙的“无名”。地道,实惠,而且口味正。你会爱上它,只要你不讨厌辣椒。 8. 你梦想结婚的地点或方式是什么? 答:午后,蓝天白云之下,水边的阳光,暖风,绿地,白地毯,亲友的祝福...凝视远方,等待那身着乳白婚纱的她,那一刻,是人生中最动人心玄的时刻... 9. 说出你一个秘密,你觉得算的就行,程度不限。 答:秘密就是:我这个人秘密还蛮多的。 10.遇到喜欢的人,你是勇敢表白还是默默关注? 答:会勇敢地用非表白的方式,来积极的关注。 11.说出点你名的人的3个优点(不可删除题) 答:善良,聪慧,行动力强(外表评价没有含在答案内) 12.如果人生可以重来,你最想改变的是什么? 答:以作画和音乐创作为生,用自己的笔,和声音纪录这个世界的风景,人和人的情感。 13.如果你有一百万,你怎么花? 答:那时候我会想‘什么时候我会可以问自己‘如果我有一千万,该怎么花?’”。 14.你对你的近况满意吗?有什么需要改变? 答:算满意。正在修正自身行事风格。生活这两点同时出现,并不矛盾,特别是当惊喜大于烦恼的时候。 15. (渴望) 他/她为你做的最浪漫的事情? 答:(渴望)彻底地,倾心地,被她所做的震撼,为她的勇气和用心而觉得幸福。有很多人目睹的话,那感觉会更不一样。也希望有一天可以对她做。 16.你最讨厌的一件事是什么? 答:不守信用。 17.如果明天是世界末日,你会和谁在一起? 答:如果我只有一天时间来证明些什么,我会选择父母。他们是我最需要报答,但又最没机会报答的人。(前提是24小时内能到达长沙,不然又要让某些人占便宜了) 18.最近常听的一首歌/曲子是什么? 答:‘Hey There Dilelah’ by Plain White T’s。 不错的一首歌。 19. 情人节最想要的礼物是什么? 答:细数已经很多年没有收过情人节的礼物,都不知道现在年轻人都流行什么。心中没有太多想法,有纪念意义的礼物应该会很不错吧. 20. 你为什么要回答这篇这么长的问卷? 答:1)以前欠的。出来混总是要还的。2) 有些人比较8g. October 13 秋风落叶的心情记得去年的九月,也是一个多事的,反复的,九月。那时的天气也是如此天高气爽。那时的心情也是如此反复,茫然。那时的人,也是多么需要被唤醒。记得那时,也写过一片日志记下那时的心情。再看此刻,虽然九月已经轻轻走过,落叶也开始随风飘下,但确不想让沉睡的人,一直沉睡下去。
说到“沉睡”,这可以是过去的一个月的生活状态的强烈反照。多亏老板“看的起”我,交给我一个月负责完成一个新的整套THz TDS Spectrometer系统. 于是,我们三个人就开始进行没日没夜的自我摧残中。当然这种自我摧残也少不了外界Deadline压力的无形阴影。全天候24小时,作战数日,在我的roomate在debate Jingle是已经退出RPI了呢还是 身体出了什么状况的问题 之前, 我们终于完成了任务,回归到正常的非牲口生活。系统按照要求寄出去,结果还是迟了两个星期。其中主观,客观原因众多,客观原因就不说,没有必要怨天怨地怨人民。主观原因在事后老板总结的时候,基本上可以得到体现。比如,Time Management 不够强 ,工作中有时候personal电话时间过长(各位有关同志注意配合,谢谢),花在实验室时间完全可以再多一倍(据说结论从my colleagues 的survey中来,提到课余生活commitment过多),很多方面经验不足, 组织纪律性不强 (当然去GE intern后有些好转) etc. 只有这一次,在老板的批评下,我没有半点反驳no self defending. 也许,这就是事实,也许这就我的缺点,需要改进的缺点。在我身上无比明显,却始终不重视的缺点。反驳,也许只是一种不愿面对,一种逃避的表现。严师出高徒,我有严师,个子算高,就不知道能否成个高徒了。在严肃谈话末尾,老板看到我陷入深刻反省的冥想中,说了一句,“你有些象我以前的学生Chris Wu”。自己的名字能和传说中的牲口级Physics PhD, Corning 牛人Chris Wu放在同一个句子中,而且中间没有反义动词,低落的心情还是得到些许宽慰。
论衡言,“人有所优,固有所劣;人有所工,固有所拙”。不可否认,对于一个25.92岁的人,身上的优缺点也随着年纪,经历,慢慢显现出来。对于这个年纪,对孩子一般的包容也不适应,对经世的人的严格也不完全适用。这是一个需要寻找自我,认清自我,培养自我的年龄。一个人对于身上的有些缺点,早已看到,早已听到,但确没有丝毫深刻去反省。这就我,一个真实的人,远不完美的人。虽然大多时候是用完美主义自居,但事实证明,有时候这只是一层骗人的面纱,只是一个回避缺点的理由,只是一个害怕真实的借口。现在想想,不由的到抽一口冷气。恍然回首过去,有无数的遗憾。过去的遗憾无法改变,但如果让这些错觉般的自我定位继续下去,那些缺点将会在将来铸成一个更大的遗憾。谁也不知道这是否终究会发生在我身上,但至少在它发生之前,让我给自己一个机会,喘息,沉静,反思。不知道有多少人愿意在每个人面前,坦诚自己的缺点。但我知道,身边有人可以,现在我也知道,我也可以。
自负。不知道何时别人开始说我自负,但随着成长,心态也时上时下,导师说,很浮。导师几年来第一次跟我讲中文就是说的“你要老老实实,踏踏实实,做学问”,可见他对我的忍无可忍。他说,你的头脑是父母给的,但怎么用是你自己的事。我明白。应该象我妈一样有工程师实事求是的态度。
自私。虽然说的不像自负那么多,但每次听起来都很刺耳。记得我曾经是多么单纯和无私,同学之间请求,乞丐面前的饭碗,沿路诈骗的“请求”,我都从来都没犹豫过。至少和自私挂不上边,而且很看不起自私的人。那时的我肯定很不懈现在的刘晶乐吧。不知是不是现实让人自私。内心中,我很痛恨自私的人,就像痛恨我后妈一样。
自恋。开玩笑的时候听到最多。也许这不是玩笑。生活在自己的世界,会让人不真实,看不到别人的优点,自己的缺点。虽然很不愿意承认这个似事而非的事实,但是也就认了吧。如果别人都有这个想法,那也就是问题,either这就是事实,or你错给别人印象就是如此。Either way, 都是自己身上的问题。自此,对车内后视镜被本人过度适用的同学,表示诚挚的道歉。
急躁。这也许是有些遗传的原因。各位爷爷姥姥,千万别介意。知道以前没少拿你们的压岁钱,不应该在这里倒家底,不孝。没法,我这人就说话就是急躁。急于求成,是古代兵家,皇政之大忌。尤其是对于一个领导者,这是最不能容忍的。对于恋爱,这点也是让对方承受不了的。要想成功,显然我还有很多路要走。
随性。水流至何方,人就到何处。在古代,作为大侠倒是一种洒脱的情节。到如今,却倒像一种放纵,随性,无责任感的自我解嘲。曾经的生活,过于放纵,是时候该收敛了。曾经的态度,过于随性,是时候收心了。曾经的习惯,过于无责任感,是时候认真了。光有野心是不够,没有责任感,自然成就不了什么事。对于感情,没有责任感的约束,结果是可想而知的。历史,不需要被重演。
当然,还有很多其他的缺点。现在就写这么多,就算为了明天醒来时还会有些许信心继续生活下去吧。也要感谢除了我父母之外敢于如此直接,毫不留情指出我众多缺点的两个人。你们都让我的自尊心受到前所未有的考验。我会永远记住你们的。
拉罗什富科曾经说过,我们承认我们的缺点,是想用我们的真诚来弥补人们因这些缺点对我们形成的不利看法。在生活很多方面,我承认自己是个弱者,甚至是个败者,但不知一份真诚可不可以让人坚强。如果真的是这样,那我希望
假如生活是船,那么真诚就是船上的帆;假如生活是无垠的天空,那么真诚就是雨后的彩虹;假如把生活比作钟表,那么真诚就如钟表上不可缺少的时针,指引你生活的方向。 August 15 sincerely yoursWhen is the last time you sat down and wrote a letter by hand?
In this day and age, writing is a rare thing to do. People usually communicate electronically now that everyone has an email address and mobile phone. It is just so easy to click ‘send’ button to send an email, so quick to make a call from your phone directory. As fast food is getting more dominating in people’s dietary nowadays, is there any chance for those genuine, authentic and delicate cuisine which is also time consuming to survive?
If you never write a real letter or it has been a while you have not, you should try it. There is something nice about putting ink to paper. You can do it outside or in an easy chair without the glow of computer. With the hectic status of busy life, I was definitely going down the path of not tending to write letters for a number of years. Then about a while ago, I just come across the idea again that there is no other better way to communicate than writing a letter when people are physically or mentally remotely apart.
It is also much more personal to open an envelope and unfold a letter. The familiar writing on paper can really talk and pour out what one thinks with full sincerity. It just feels different. I think it is a classical thing. You can either enjoy the romantic idea of it or genuineness of not-easy-said written words if you could be patient enough to wait for the interchange of the letter. It is kind of exciting. It just means a lot more than an email. It is also a significant gesture.
When is the last time you wrote a letter? Can you think of anyone who would like to receive one?
June 29 In Days of JuneWhen the days of June are coming along... 'Then....' I also wonder what will happen then... In the journey of wandering about the answer, the days of June has passed by quietly, freely and without making any big wave. For quite a long period of time, life has not been such placid and smooth. Not too many parties, not too much hang out, not too much crowd, not too much alcohol, not too much club music... No, not at all. Those things used to be regular customers to my daily life, now, have gone away with the days of June. Fading away, away...away enough to be at the edge of my life outside circle if those things have not totally disappeared in my life. Instead, 9am-5pm work fills up my day time while piano, history & art book reading, pencil sketch, tennis make my night hours. This is all current my life. I do not have that much time to go out as often as before, furthermore, I do not feel like to. Working for big company is always exciting. But people do need to have their own private life where you can give yourself more time to get the work off the mind and painting different color on other parts of your life by doing some your own stuffs. Reading books, thinking alone, being immersed in soft music, moving pencil on paper, these things makes up my 'life palette'. Just suddenly realized that life is so short and no matter how much you have done, you still have so many things to do and so many people to meet ahead... but do you know yourself enough for your age? Apparently, for me, the answer is definitely NO. In the past years, like a curious kid, I have been investing most of my time and energy on exploring the outside world... working hard, playing hard, not loving hard, but still asking for more, being aggressive, being over energetic... all of those characterizes my past three years. In my life, I heard quite a lot of saying or 'rumors' all over around through people, people through people, or people through people through people etc. Those words are pretty much all about my personality or behavior in perspective of others. Sometimes I feel it never ends until people die out or I extinguish. Isn't it funny and ironical that to some extent, I got to know myself more from what people said than from my own thinking? Yeah, I admit that I did not take too much time to look at myself and think about what is going on inside me. Maybe life could be as hectic as possible, but that is just an excuse. 'Even the fastest train in the world will still need to stop when it comes to the right station.' Perhaps, it is the time to pull it over and have a thorough check-up. Sitting by the window in the my apartment, overlooking the view of serene Harvard University campus, listening to the pleasant melody, there is no better occasion to slow down, think, explore, wait, imagine, hope...like it is right now. Some times staying away from crowd can really make it much easier to find out what person I really am. It is said that unlike girls, a boy usually grow up into a man just overnight. Of course, this is not exactly my case.But it seems like the train of my life is starting another new journey now. I don't know where it exactly heading to. But I do know it would be going with different rhythm, different pace, different tone and different mood from before. Past three years gave me a lot of unique life experience, chances to grow, and opportunity to learn. And I cherished what I gained through the 'busy life' while feel regretful about what I lost through this 'busy life'. But fortunately, as a young man, I still have many chances to pursuit what I am looking for from the bottom of heart rather than getting stuck with the superficial, temporary 'chaos of being high'. Allright. Time to crank up the new life locomotive with use of more clean and green energy. Maybe it is like 'Ecomagination' – quote from GE's new strategy theme and commitment. Not 100% sure about what following life journey would be but there should be a few things can not be missed or need to be stressed: More punctual habit, more responsible work, more organized life, more serious relationship, more stable emotion, more solid achievement. Less casual habit, less impulsive hehavior, less crazy chaos life, less unrealistically romance, less high-profile, less entertaining news. Sincerely hope anyone never hesitate to be honest with me and share advice or thoughts to help this waking up young man grow...
April 24 四月杂感貌似很久没有写些东西了,不知不觉寒冬已经过去,春天来了。俗话说,春眠不觉晓,处处蚊子咬。咬得我手痒,上来写几句话。从前一段时间,思想经历复杂,混乱,毁灭,低潮,冷静,清晰,轻松,阳光等若干个阶段,最终回复到华氏80度,这个温度,惬意。介于人老记性不好,就用无间道全3集中的“倒序手段”吧。 从刚刚结束足球说起,位置,攻击前卫,数据统计:进球一个,助攻一个,传球成功指数8, 射门成功指数7,侵犯别人指数3,被别人侵犯指数9.5, 带伤上场指数9.5…一场下来,还算感觉不错,就是没吃晚饭。做完实验直接踢球还是不健康di,小朋友请务模仿。这次intramural soccer tournament, 参加了两支队,一个是我们Delta Phi Fraternity 的队,另一个是和一群Junior的队,叫Gunther,因为我们有些人很喜欢他的歌。我是两队中唯一的Asian, 好处就是,防守脏活累活都他们Americans抗了,贼有安全感,我也可以省省体力进攻。 说到运动,最近也下了次水,swimming always feels good and pumps me up. 霸蛮游了个500m, 人都泡发了,也喝了几斤氯化钠… 也打了网球,好些年没打了,直到现在还腰疼,是不是肾太亏的缘故?没有理由啊,单身也会肾亏? 也打了次golf, 在Kerri的严师教育下,技术显著提高,基本上有几杆还是可以打到鸟di, 当然手上那根杆子也不知道是Ki 还是HP的,估计他们回去会发现有点扭曲,没办法,从小种田种多了,习惯性的把golf club 当锄头。 最近经常想Time management. 作为一个physics phd, 个人觉得academic research和entertainment的平衡性相当重要,花了一年时间,才慢慢找到一些心得,如何两不误。希望各位有同感的人,可以一起分享。
望,各位科学学界友人,提出广大批评。这样我们才有望一起成为新世纪所需的物理专才,职业全才。 也有些挑战的事情,上周某深夜, fraternity的10多朋友一起去玩了 capture flag, 每人身着黑衣,携带hi-tech 装备,在半个RPI campus大的地图上展开了flag争夺站。整个游戏就像一场真实战争一样,如果在保护好自己的flag的情况下夺取对方的,需要避开对方的放哨,sneak in, bluff, decoy…多种战术都得以体现。我的mother, 那天我们是赢了,我也跑了这几年最多的一次步,没发现自己越野跑还可以,quote – ‘这根脆骨还ko以’。还好Public safety 没把我们这群在校园黑暗中行为猥琐,目光猥亵的黑衣人拦下质问。 也不是每件事都开心,愚人节附近,有一RPI得毕业生早上从我办公室旁边楼梯间处跳9楼自杀,创造一条校园大新闻。校园关闭,警察云集,连SWAT也来凑热闹。现在都不敢用楼梯了,一股漂白粉,消毒剂的味道。事态扫一平息,弗吉尼亚理工大学又来个Crazy Korean两把手枪,谋杀32人,惊动中央,惊动党,wat a f*(king bastard! 这年头就是心里不能太扭曲,韩国人就是把蛮。如同韩国电影。 也不是每件事都顺利,今早看到我的laptop屏幕上出现巨大裂痕,硬伤,基本废掉。正当我准备问候某些可疑人士的母亲的时候,忽然想到,昨晚在去bathroom途中,估计一脚跺在在放在地上的laptop上的缘故,那一脚应该很扎实。 总结,1)IBM thinkpad 太薄,抗打击性不及转头一般的dell. 2) 弹钢琴不能太晚,有些弹得神魂颠倒。 3) 睡前喝水不能太多,免得到时候“急”中生“事”。4) 我的笔记本的命都不好。 也不是每时每刻都轻松,看grind house的时候,zuo实‘爽”了一把,女生建议不要看。Dimension film出品的电影的确有风格。不能说很喜欢,但确实很极品。心灵脆弱的同志们,尤其是走玉女,公主路线的女生,千万别受诱惑去看。 也不是每个日子都很普通的,4.15对于我来说就是一个特别的日子。对于那些苦苦申请的学子们,也是同样的判期。但只有走过之后,才知道一切的酸甜苦辣。回首,是漫长的寒冬,眼前,是无限的春光。生活很奇妙,春天原来可以来的这么快。 暑假,马上就要开始。顺便跟大家回报一下行踪。五月中旬,开始做internship, 公司是通用电气GE, 地点波士顿。随时接待,各位访友,男生包住;女生,包包包…..面谈。希望大家都能有个愉快难忘的暑假。国内还在期中考试的同学们,千万不要嫉妒,其实我也不想有3个半月的暑假. 当然,暑假,这对于phD来说,也只是technically. 一点感受,今天看到coolant的 blog的一篇文章,关于母亲,转载,“当我老了”。节选。 “ 当我老了 当我老了,不再是原来的我。请理解我,对我有一点耐心。 当我把菜汤洒到自己的衣服上时,当我忘记怎样系鞋带时,请想一想当初我是如何手把手地教你。 当我一遍又一遍地重复你早已听腻的话语,请耐心地听我说,不要打断我。你小的时候,我不得不重复那个讲过千百遍的故事,直到你进入梦乡。 当我需要你帮我洗澡时,请不要责备我。还记得小时候我千方百计哄你洗澡的情形吗? 当我对新科技和新事物不知所措时,请不要嘲笑我。想一想当初我怎样耐心地回答你的每一个“为什么”。 当我由于双腿疲劳而无法行走时,请伸出你年轻有力的手搀扶我。就像你小时候学习走路时,我扶你那样。 当我忽然忘记我们谈话的主题,请给我一些时间让我回想。其实对我来说,谈论什么并不重要,只要你能在一旁听我说,我就很满足。 当你看着老去的我,请不要悲伤。理解我,支持我,就像你刚才开始学习如何生活时我对你那样。当初我引导你走上人生路,如今请陪伴我走完最后的路。给我你的爱和耐心,我会抱以感激的微笑,这微笑中凝结着我对你无限的爱。 ” 看了,哭了。请善待你的母亲。 最后,一些愿望。癌症,是可怕的。但如果我们一起努力,也许会帮助到很多癌症患者。American Cancer Society 每年一度的Relay For Life这周末在RPI进行,会有很多学生去参加通宵10几个小时的跑步拉力赛,这是一个International event, 并借此提倡,每个人为治愈癌症的基础研究做些贡献,让全世界人都收益。我身边的人有人已经因为癌症过世,有人正在与癌症斗争,看到这一切,让我有更大动力投身在这次慈善活动中。希望大家如果有几分钟时间,看看http://www.acsevents.org/faf/r.asp?t=4&i=205690&u=205690-166183731&e=1040255222
如果你能通过这个link donate 一些钱用于所有癌症患者,我和所有参与这个活动的自愿者,还有所有的癌症患者都回非常感谢你. 我个人已经donate $20. 但我知道,只有我一个人的力量是不够的。希望,大家可以发挥一下爱心的力量,不管是因为自己的亲人朋友遭受癌症的痛苦,还是你觉得Jingle 一通宵的长跑比较造孽,或是觉得人为什么不做一些自己觉得有意义的事呢。每位募捐的好心人,都会出现在官方网站上的光荣榜上。数目多少不重要,every cent worth it. Please, please, please… March 04 我们的故事,如舞台上的真实那年冬天,他拿着机票,兴奋向朋友说,“我要回去了”。 一年多的分离,但是他心中却从来没有停止对她的思念....
当国航的航班在北京机场降落,当他再次踏上这片熟悉的土地,“好熟悉的空气.我终于回来了...” 他不知不觉地来到他们第一次相遇的老地方。记得五年前年的冬天,北京下了第一场雪,还是这个时间,还是这个地方,还是在这棵梧桐树下,她问他“我们会一直在一起吗?”,他毫不犹豫的点了点头,那一刻,冰冷的雪花在他幸福的脸上融化...五年过去了,这儿还是原来的样子,但这些年的风霜似乎让这棵梧桐树比以前苍老了许多。“即使我们的初恋已经逝去,现在的你是否还依然那样快乐?” “我第一次说爱你的时候,呼吸难过,心不停的颤抖...” 费尽周折,当他们好不容易重逢,一样地方,一样时间,周围的一切都没有变,变的是他们自己... 他说,“你愿意陪我度过在北京的最后一个夜晚吗?”
One night in 北京我留下许多情,不管你爱与不爱,都是历史的尘埃... 当第二天清晨的阳光洒落进房间的时候,他们不知所措。她说她要走了,他们都知道,只是因相聚才有离别,会拥有也终将会失去。她说过,离别只求共同拥有曾经。
这不是偶然,也不是祝愿,。这是上天对重逢的安排! 他们的相遇注定这么短暂。 但却是烙印最深的美丽,心的思念,慢慢燃烧他的记忆。 |