When the days of June are coming along...

'Then....' I also wonder what will happen then... In the journey of wandering about the answer, the days of June has passed by quietly, freely and without making any big wave. For quite a long period of time, life has not been such placid and smooth. Not too many parties, not too much hang out, not too much crowd, not too much alcohol, not too much club music... No, not at all. Those things used to be regular customers to my daily life, now, have gone away with the days of June. Fading away, away...away enough to be at the edge of my life outside circle if those things have not totally disappeared in my life.

Instead, 9am-5pm work fills up my day time while piano, history & art book reading, pencil sketch, tennis make my night hours. This is all current my life. I do not have that much time to go out as often as before, furthermore, I do not feel like to. Working for big company is always exciting. But people do need to have their own private life where you can give yourself more time to get the work off the mind and painting different color on other parts of your life by doing some your own stuffs. Reading books, thinking alone, being immersed in soft music, moving pencil on paper, these things makes up my 'life palette'. Just suddenly realized that life is so short and no matter how much you have done, you still have so many things to do and so many people to meet ahead... but do you know yourself enough for your age? Apparently, for me, the answer is definitely NO.

In the past years, like a curious kid, I have been investing most of my time and energy on exploring the outside world... working hard, playing hard, not loving hard, but still asking for more, being aggressive, being over energetic... all of those characterizes my past three years. In my life, I heard quite a lot of saying or 'rumors' all over around through people, people through people, or people through people through people etc. Those words are pretty much all about my personality or behavior in perspective of others. Sometimes I feel it never ends until people die out or I extinguish. Isn't it funny and ironical that to some extent, I got to know myself more from what people said than from my own thinking? Yeah, I admit that I did not take too much time to look at myself and think about what is going on inside me. Maybe life could be as hectic as possible, but that is just an excuse. 'Even the fastest train in the world will still need to stop when it comes to the right station.' Perhaps, it is the time to pull it over and have a thorough check-up. Sitting by the window in the my apartment, overlooking the view of serene Harvard University campus, listening to the pleasant melody, there is no better occasion to slow down, think, explore, wait, imagine, hope...like it is right now. Some times staying away from crowd can really make it much easier to find out what person I really am.

It is said that unlike girls, a boy usually grow up into a man just overnight. Of course, this is not exactly my case.But it seems like the train of my life is starting another new journey now. I don't know where it exactly heading to. But I do know it would be going with different rhythm, different pace, different tone and different mood from before. Past three years gave me a lot of unique life experience, chances to grow, and opportunity to learn. And I cherished what I gained through the 'busy life' while feel regretful about what I lost through this 'busy life'. But fortunately, as a young man, I still have many chances to pursuit what I am looking for from the bottom of heart rather than getting stuck with the superficial, temporary 'chaos of being high'.

Allright. Time to crank up the new life locomotive with use of more clean and green energy. Maybe it is like 'Ecomagination' – quote from GE's new strategy theme and commitment. Not 100% sure about what following life journey would be but there should be a few things can not be missed or need to be stressed:

More punctual habit, more responsible work, more organized life, more serious relationship, more stable emotion, more solid achievement.

Less casual habit, less impulsive hehavior, less crazy chaos life, less unrealistically romance, less high-profile, less entertaining news.

Sincerely hope anyone never hesitate to be honest with me and share advice or thoughts to help this waking up young man grow...